Official Begin Writing Again Month is turning into Official Writer’s Block Month. I just can’t seem to get going with the book. This is probably a good lesson in reasons not to have Official No Writing Month. I completely lost my writing rhythm and my writing schedule. Note to self: Official No Writing Month is counter-productive.
Today, to try to get going again, I made a list of things that I have yet to write about in the book. I thought if I listed them, I could just work my way down the list, writing about each one. Instead, I feel overwhelmed by the list of people and events. When I try to think about how some of them might be combined into a chapter, I get even more overwhelmed.
I am still thinking of going back to the beginning and rewriting. But when I look at the list of files in my computer, that overwhelms me too. There are 10 complete chapter-like sections in my Korea folder, all 12-20 pages long. These have all been workshopped, meaning I have comments on them to implement, and some of them have already been through one post-workshop revision. There are a ton of other Word files filled with incomplete scenes, scenes without a home in the manuscript, ideas for scenes, and so on. I have a binder filled with research about Korea, news from the time I was in Korea, etc. I have a Ziploc bag filled with letters I wrote when I was in Korea and with letters written to me. I have 4 guidebooks on Korea of various sorts on my desk, along with two travel memoirs that I have been using as models, Iron and Silk and Beyond the Sky and the Earth.
How will all of this material possibly come together?
Alas, writing is hard.
Strangely, I don’t seem to have a problem writing here on the blog. Perhaps I should start writing scenes here to get going again?