I found out today that an essay of mine will be published. In an actual literary magazine.
This is obviously very good news, and I was so excited after I found out that I had a lot of trouble getting anything done all afternoon at work.
It’s strange…the essay is an old piece, written pre-MFA program. I think I wrote the first version in 2000, or 2001. I can’t even remember, it was so long ago. I re-vamped it a couple of times in the years that followed. I actually used it to apply to MFA programs four years ago. But for some reason I never considered sending it out until a few months ago.
Because I am a spastic over-analyzer of everything, having an essay published that I wrote before getting an MFA when I can’t for the life of me get something I wrote during my MFA program published has not gone unnoticed by me. But I am trying not to think about that, and what it might mean.
What is important to point out, however, is that it doesn’t hurt to send out old stuff. Even if it seems …well, old. Or tired, because you’ve read it so many times, or it’s just different from how you write now.